I just wanted to share some thoughts about my Fitness Journey. I’ve been back in Hawaii for one year & I cannot believe it! The one thing that I decided to change in my life if my health and becoming more fit.
Can I first share the real reason why I said “That’s it!! I cannot be like this any more!”
Well it actually came from Shopping! After I delivered Destiny, I waited a few months for the water weight to go down before shopping. But none of my clothes fit so I had to buy clothes to fit how big I was. I get it. We are not going to miraculously look and be the same weight before everyone has babies. In another post I’ll share my weight experience with being pregnant.
But let’s just say that one day while trying on clothes, I started to realize that as much as I want to get clothes that flatter my body, in my head nothing was flattering to me cause no matter what I put on all I could see was a body that I wasn’t personally attracted to. Cause in my head I had a flat stomach, tight butt and all that but in the mirror, I didn’t see any of that.
I took a hard look at myself and told my self that I cannot complain about how I look cause I allowed myself to get here. I allowed myself to let my body go and not care. And I know venting to my husband was not even an option cause I would hear about “I told you so.” So rather than whine about it, do something about it.
It was no easy doing something that makes you uncomfortable. I told myself that I had to go to the gym three times a week. Even if I didn’t push myself super hard at least I did something.
When I wanted to quit, I would have to tell myself “You didn’t gain all this weight overnight, so your not going to lose it overnight either!”
That’s exactly what I would tell myself, which would allow me to give myself grace and love. And I would keep pushing through pumping through high energy music, usually lots of Beyonce! I switch my goal of going to the gym at least 5 times a week after listening to a podcast by Tony Robbins. He said something like “If I were to ask everyone in the audience who work out 5 days a week to please stand up, you could just look at them and tell by how fit they look that they work out 5 days a week.” I have no idea why that resonated with me, but all I could think about was I wanted to be one of those people that could say “yes I work out 5 days a week” and you could tell by how I look. I had set this new expectation on myself. It’s not like a have a dedicated fitness plan, I just started going that amount of days.
I started to realize on the days that I didn’t go I actually felt more tired and lazy. And even my baby started to get used to the idea of going basically everyday to the gym that when we don’t go in the morning, she is really thrown off her whole mood. She is super moody, her naps are thrown off, and her sleep is thrown off too. Even if I go to the gym in the evening, it throws her off.
Going to the gym is not only for me, its for my baby too. She loves going to hang out with her aunties in Kids Club. She gets her own break from mommy and daddy yelling at her. She gets to be a rascal with all the other kids. They love her so much. They have see her grow from just crawling to walking to running and climbing on furniture. I get two hours to myself by dropping her off and then when I pick her up she is ready to go home and take a long nap.
My point that I’m trying to share is JUST GO! Just show up.
And you go enough times that when you don’t go to the gym, your body misses it. I would say it took me over 5 months of going regularly before I actually started craving my trip to the gym. If it has taught me anything, it’s that this experience has shown me that I can start something and complete it. Just start with the first step.
It being about one and half year since having Destiny, I haven’t lost extreme amount of weight. I actually have lost 15 lbs and am the same weight as before I got pregnant. I way be the same weight but I can tell I’m stronger, faster, more active than before. Right now I’m much more happy that my body is shaping the way I want and imagine it to be. Still have much more work to do, but I have been able to love myself because I know how much work physically, mentally, spiritually I done to become a much better woman.